Saturday, July 01, 2006

So I'm really bored at work and haven't updated this thing since February. Life is pretty good I suppose. Only one week before I leave for Jamacia! I am so freaking excited!!! for 10 days too! I'm going with my crunk roomie sara and we are going to have a blast. I got everything for discount price.. i'm talkin about discount! It's only $375 for the whole trip, there and back. Jamacia is really about the only thing keeping me going. I'm working like crazy but really love my job. It's just so exhausting.. I work way out in Alpharetta.. why you ask? I know it's about an hour from d'ville, but they were able to start me when I needed to be started, let me have 2 weeks off for Jamacia, $8 an hour plus commission and promised me atleast 40 hours a week.. so I'm excited about that. I work with becky.. she's my manager. :) lol.. I love working with her and we also car pool so it isn't too bad. I have just been working a whole lot recently with no days off because she was on a cruise so it was only me and our other co-worker Torri.. who i adore by the way! She's really great! The job gets kinda boring though.. I usually pray for customers to come in. lol! It's slow so I sit on myspace and facebook all day praying someone will message me. haha. But atleast I got the internet and sometimes we watch movies on bec's laptop.. so I can't really complain. I enjoy it. As for my friends, I'm very sorry I'm being a bad friend lately. I haven't been able to see and hang out with all my new/old friends because I'm so busy with work. the hours are great, but I don't get home until late and I'm tired by then. So I'm sorry to all you guys reading this. I promise I'll make it up to you! :( I'm still single and love every minute of it. I just realized how much I enjoy being by myself right now. I don't have to answer anyone. I can do what I want when I want. It's just that all the guys I talk I soon lose interest in them and get bored. I know the right one will come along when I'm good and ready.. so until then I'm enjoying being single doing my thing and considerating on myself for once. My car needs to get fixed, I went over on my cell phone, charged $237 on my charge card for my ticket I got for my wreck back in may.. so that sucks!! My bills are high, but hopefullt shit will get quit getting sour and I can start saving instead of spending. My summer is alright I suppose. My mom has been trippin out.. it's really weird moving home again and having all these rules.. so that part really sucks.. Of course with all the bad stuff I can atleast thank god for all the good things too. But I have come to realize that life is always about problems and I need to learn to deal with that. You are either working out a problem, coming out of a problem, or going back into one. It's frustrating, but it's life. My family has been falling apart and I'm trying everything I can to keep it together and make everyone happy. I miss Ashley so much it hurts. Everyday goes by and I think of her. I have lost plenty of ppl in my life, but she was by far one of the hardest. I don't think she ever knew how much she was truly loved. I still visit her myspace daily. I use to call her phone just hoping maybe she would pick up and it was all a lie. I just wanted to hear her voicemail.. I don't know why I do these things.. I know it's lame.. but I do. I was drunk with her just the night before and we talked about a lot of things.. I just wish it wasn't the last time. I still cry. I'm still hurt and angry. I know as time goes on it gets easily.. but damn this shit really hurts! She was my big sister man.. she lived with me for over a year! We have her Mikey her cat now and it's difficult.. everytime I look at him I se Ashley and I just want to cry. I know later on it will get easier and the cat will become more of a reminder of how great she was. freak accidents man.. I just don't understand them.. and why God does it. I don't understand lot about God.. it's just so confusing.. o well.. I guess that's another story for another time. My family and Ashley are about my only two problems right now and I'm fine with that! lol.. everything else is great.. I'm writing a book here so I better cut it short. I hope everyone is enjoying the summer sun and having fun. I finally have a customer.. yay! take care everyone and god bless..